Izinkan Aku

Aku belajar dari sosok Khadijah [RA]. Betapa, seorang wanita yang mulia dapat menjadi sosok yang dihormati. Karena kecerdasan akalnya, kehalusan budi pekertinya. Bahkan orang yang berada didekatnya pun akan merasa risih untuk membicarakan suatu hal yang tak berguna. 

Khadijah [RA] lebih memilih diam dan merenungkan segala penciptaan Allah SWT, dibandingkan pembicaraan yang kosong. MasyaAllah, sedangkan aku di abad ini dan titik koordinat ini, tak ubahnya perempuan akhir zaman yang masih jauh dari cita-cita menjadi shalehah. Perempuan yang masih berkutat erat dengan urusan duniawi dan menjadi pendosa yang lekat dengan ahli neraka.

Ya Allah, aku hanya berharap menjadi perempuan yang selalu bisa meneladani sikap mulia dari Khadijah [RA], kesucian Maryam [RA], kelembutan Aisyah [RA] dan kebaikan dari Asiyah [RA].

Izinkan aku melabuhkan pengharapan ini kepada-Mu Ya Allah.

Hanya kepada-Mu Yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang.

Yang memiliki dunia ini beserta segala kemungkinan yang terjadi seperti nasib dan takdir.

Aamiin. Aamiin. Aamiin.

Cause We Are Born Without Knowing Any Thing!

Had you ever imagined, why you look different? Maybe, you ever complained about your skin colour, your tribal/race or even Your Religion!
When I was 6th grade, I ever asked about religion.
Why I became Christian?
Why I need to follow my parents order to going to church?
Why I need to worship Jesus Christ?
When I was 13th, I encourage myself to learn about Islam, read many things from The Bible and asking my parents with many things that I didn't know and hoping them for give me clarification or explain my question.
But, their answer are not enough for my curiosity. 
I learn again about Islam and at 14th I declared myself to be A Muslim even I don't know when.

In Indonesia, many things are complicated.Including what I've mentioned before.

Actually, I born in a family which most of them are Christian or Catholic. My dad is a Christian, my mother is a Catholic, and my brother is a Christian too.

Why I born in this family?

And I keep my routine as before, going to church when I want. Pretend to pray even in my heart I read Al-Fatihaah in my heart.

And finally 3 years later I could became A Muslim. I need to hide this, for about 2 and a half months.
I scared of my father. I scared he will extrude me from the house. I scared he won't take me as his daughther anymore.

But Thanks God, my dad didn't do cheap things like that. He gave his permission to me, even I don't need it. Cause I know this is human right. 

So, what I wanna say are:

No matter what colour is your skin, what races are you, what religion are you.Just try to be youself! Show them and convince them, your choices are right. Even it will risk many things. But remember, don't judge and don't blame others with anything you choose.